Vanessa Tan
19 on 19 Oct.

Currently studying Law in TP.

Loves sports and I'm a musically declined person.

I can be nice if I want to. =)

PLUS I decided to have another blog because I need a place to rant about shitty happenings
AND of course because i'm bored. Hoho.

I'm so disappointed in life I don't even know how to begin. I feel like my world was thrashed a thousand times. I'm so disappointed with the fact that it happens to me all the time.

Why me? Only me. Why of all ppl only me? Is it tt hard to let me taste happiness?
Or letting me taste a bit of happiness is supposed to be a trap so that I would receive a blow of misery the moment I get tempted by it?

I have absolute zero confidence in guys. ZERO. None. I can't trust anyone but myself because my trust gets betrayed everytime. Everytime I'm satisfied with life, it'll be screwed somehow or so. My heart is so bruised I can't breathe properly cause my chest hurts like fuck.

This time, it's like what Sher said. It's the final straw that broke the camel's back. I'm so lost, confused, hurt and angry. Mostly lost. I just wanna hide away from this cruel world for a bit before evolving as someone stronger than before. But right now I wanna just disappear. Disappear so I feel nothing.

There was alrdy a knife stabbed by the previous 2. Now, he came around and pushed the knife so deep in I feel like fuck.
Why give me a whole lot of hope and promises when you can't carry it out? Why make me give you my heart only for you to stomp on it till it's all smashed and gooey and then return it back to me?

Why choose to leave me hanging, causing me to be neither here nor there. Why say you do when you don't? Why is there no closure or explaination? Are you even a man with balls?

Because of what you've done, I learnt to be a stronger person. I learn never to trust ppl. I learn to be tough and suspicious of ppl. I learn that guys can never be trusted. Thank you for teaching me all that. And I'm still waiting for an explaination I rightfully deserve but never get.

I don't hate you. But I really liked you and you took that for granted and everything we had for a fucking game. Im going to move on. You'll see.





It’s funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly silly me

I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving in to promises
I never should have gone for,
I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can’t get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn’t man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn’t love me anymore

If you had only told me how you really felt
I could have put my feelings into someone else
But I was busy thinking I was where I was supposed to be
Silly silly me
But there was something ‘bout you that I couldn’t resist
Can’t put my finger on it but whatever it is
I never should have stood for it
I know you’re no good for me
And that’s the way it is
And I want it to be over
I so want it to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can’t get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn’t man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn’t love me anymore