Goodbyes are meant for Lonely Ppl Standing in the Rain

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Vanessa Tan
19 on 19 Oct.

Currently studying Law in TP.

Loves sports and I'm a musically declined person.

I can be nice if I want to. =)

PLUS I decided to have another blog because I need a place to rant about shitty happenings
AND of course because i'm bored. Hoho.


I"LL LIKE TO HAVE-

most pretty much EVERYTHING that's to my advantage.=)


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Wednesday, September 2, 2009 @ 9/02/2009 10:13:00 PM
Moved

I've moved!

Note: ANYONE WHO READS THIS BLOG
Come ask me for my new blog url! :)


Goodbye and Farewell stalkers. Yea. You! Haha.

Bye.

@ 9/02/2009 11:39:00 AM
it's you :)

Someone out there is meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soulmate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He’ll smile at you when you tell him, but he’ll never laugh at your heart. He’ll brush the hair out of your eyes and send you flowers when you least expect it. He’ll call you to tell you goodnight before you get into bed or just because he is thinking about you. He’ll be bursting to talk to you each morning just to hear the sound of your voice. He’ll look into your eyes and tell you that you are the most beautiful girl he has ever seen and for the first time in your life, you’ll believe it.
“
—
Dawson’s Creek (via runawaytrain)


Tuesday, August 18, 2009 @ 8/18/2009 09:37:00 PM
Happy girl. :)

I'm happy. Hoho. Everything's pretty perfect. Except for a few annoying mosquitoes buzzing here and there trying to ruin my relationship. But too bad! It's not working noobtards! Haha.

Im just satisfied with what I have now. Like it's the type of relationship I've been waiting sooooo long for. I can be myself. Our parents gave their approvals, my mom's damn supportive of it and has been really nice to Joshua. He comes over to my place, we hang out, do stuffs tgt (right baby?) and enjoy each others' company. He's somehow e first one I can say 'I love you' to without feeling awkward and truly mean it. Past few relationships, I refused to say it. Even to the point where I dont even allow pet names. BUT Joshua's my baby and I love him. Haha. Getting damn mushy now.

He makes me smile. Although he made me cry before (TSK), most of the time my heart is smiling. He remembers e smallest details and tries to accomodate me. I get excited when i know i'm going to meet him. The butterflies in stomach thing. :)


Anw, we watched sunset tgt. Something I've always wanted to do with someone i love and loves me back.


So awesomeeee right?


His family is nice too. Ya okay. I know i used to think his mom was scary and fierce. NOT ANYMORE LA. His mama damn nice la can. haha. His brother super cute. 10 times cuter than him. (Sorry baby. He's cuter. Haha)




I dont want things to ever change. But a part of me still worries i'll be taken for a ride. Not that i dont trust him. Past experiences just made me lose confidence in relationships.

My baby :)

I love you Joshua Tan Chong Yu. <3


Thursday, July 23, 2009 @ 7/23/2009 12:12:00 PM
so long can.


The days are far too long. Tsk.

Monday, July 20, 2009 @ 7/20/2009 07:16:00 PM
I never thought.

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race
but I already won first place
I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids (Yeah)
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down (knocked me down)
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
I dont wanna assume things and end up being taken for a ride again. I'm not interested to be friends, have fun or treat it as a joke. Especially and strictly NO buddies. I want something thats truly mine. Something that I've been waiting all this time. Something nobody has never ever given me before.
It seems like at least things are turning out the way I wish they would so far. But there are small complications here and there. I dont want to rush in like a fool. But at the same time I really dont wanna drag cause the last time I waited and waited, it came to a nought. Its so contridicting I know. I'm having a headache.
I know ppl will tell me its too fast and all. But seriously, how long do you actually need to know if you have liking for that person? One month? Three months? Honestly, I don't believe that time is such a big factor.
Now I'm just scared. Because somehow I have this feeling that when things are going so well, Someone's gonna come and take something away from me. I just know I dont have such luck.
Long term relationship? Whats that? Ooh right. I have no idea what that is. It's always taken away from me just when I fall into it. Always. Nv fail to happen. Hurray! Bingo! It's like someone up there just enjoys seeing me being unhappy. There's always this fucking trap I'll fall into, thought I'm lucky this time, enjoying myself in lala land and Poof*, I'm slapped back to reality and spat into the heartslashing situation. It's like a cycle.
I'm so sick and tired of going through all these shit. Give me a chance and let me off please. Do it to someone else. I've had enough.
Imy. My 'friend's friend'. I wonder how you are now.

Sunday, June 21, 2009 @ 6/21/2009 10:46:00 AM
Sucked.

Two o'clock and I wish that I was sleepin
Your in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is I gotta get next to you (gotta get next to you)
Sittin here turnin minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
Cause you don't know that I gotta get next to you

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little to long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy but I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I just gotta get next to you
[ah, gotta get next to you]

Asked around and I heard that you were talkin
Told my girl that you thought that I was outta your league
What a fool, I gotta get next to you [whoa, gotta get next to you]
Yeah its five in the mourning and I can't go to sleep
Cause I wish, yeah, I wish you knew what you mean to me
[Baby] Lets get together and end this misery [oh]

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little to long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy but I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I just gotta get next to you

[whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do
how you get the one you want]
To wanna get next to you
[whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do
how you get the one you want]
To wanna get next to you, Yeah
[whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do
how you get the one you want]
What I gotta say, what I gotta do
If I wanna get next to you
[whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do
how you get the one you want]
To wanna get next to you, yeah
To wanna get next to you

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little to long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy but I think you feel it too
Maybe I [baby call me crazy]
But I know you feel it too
Maybe I, maybe I just gotta get next to you
[ah, yeah]
I gotta get next to you

Thursday, June 18, 2009 @ 6/18/2009 09:43:00 PM
Pls Dont Let It Happen Agn.

Haisss. I dont know man.

Things are like going nowhere. It's not progressing much.

Im afraid history will repeat itself. Im scared.
Im afraid I'm forcing things to happen just like the last time, trying to challenge fate, and I'll still end up losing everything in the end and getting hurt like fuck.

He's not doing anything. So many hints alrdy. I cant be the one always trying right?

What if he doesnt feel the same way?
What if he just treats me as a friend?

I spend so much time not to be your fricking buddy mann.
If he doesnt feel the same, why does he still do the things he does?

Ahhh. Confused.